Having a tearful moment....

I was really really really hoping for TA today.  There were NO travel approvals issued last week from the CCCWA, and that created a backlog of about 20 of us on the RQ site that are waiting for permission to go get our children.  There was indeed a flash flood of TA's today, but we weren't included.  Most TA seem to come on Mondays (with the exception of this week, as yesterday was Labor Day Monday) so I'm doubtful we'll be purchasing plane tickets this week or packing any bags.  The hardest part is trying to remain patient with a positive attitude when other families are crusing right past us with quicker approval times.  We are definitely on the longer side of the wait times, and have been so throughout this whole adoption journey.  If the average wait times are 2 to 4 weeks for a certain step, you can bet your last dollar we'll be waiting the full 4 weeks.  And so we wait.  And wait.  And wait.  And now all of the September CA appointments have been taken, so our best chance at leaving at this point will be mid-October.  I keep repeating:

 Lord, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change,

Courage to change the things I can,

And the wisdom to know the difference.

But still, a few sad tears have escaped today.  And I don't usually cry easily.  It's overdue.